We are taught as a society to “roll with the punches”, to adjust to all of life’s circumstances.
Do what ever it takes to stay on top of the game.
Look perfect from the outside, no matter how messed up you are on the inside.
Block every distraction by putting up walls, covering the pain, and pretending that it is not there.
The problem with many people is they do just that. They go through life with so much baggage and junk kept inside.
They try to hide what is reality in order to keep some self-made image of who they are and what they are really going through.
Reality is, many people are going through hell.
I say that not in the context of the bad word, but the bad place.
The truth is, so many people in life are walking around every day with so much pain, hurt, brokenness, loneliness, etc.
Yet, they are too afraid to let anyone know.
They are too prideful,
They are too tough.
They do not need anybody.
They can deal with things on their own.
They have all of the answers.
The thing is, we do not have all of the answers.
In fact, I am pretty sure that we hardly have any answers.
We try to fix Life by keeping busy, by jumping around from relationship to relationship, by taking matters into our own hands.
We feel like we have no voice, we feel like life is too big, we feel like nobody truly cares.
So what do we do?
As mentioned before…
We bottle it all up.
We construct these perfect, bulletproof walls around us.
But out of the midst of chaos comes the one thing that literally holds all of life together.
GOD
If you are asking if I just rambled along, not making a whole lot of since, with a lot of incomplete and run on sentences, and wasted your time to give you some simple faith based way to overcome all of your problems…
I did.
Reality is, life has a way of coming back around sometimes.
For the past few months, my personal life has been pretty chaotic.
This ministry emerged out of the pain and brokenness of a divorce.
At the age of sixteen my parents split, and my life took a drastic turn.
(You can read all about it in “My Story”)
However through this ministry I have been able to speak to hundreds of teens and young adults on the subject of divorce, and how it has an impact on this generation.
Every time I speak I ask the audience to raise their hands if their parents have been divorced. It is overwhelming to see the amount of people that divorce effects.
I go on to tell everyone that pain, brokenness and hurt effect all of us, and that they are not alone, that they have a voice, and that they can tell their story.
However, for the past few months I have relived and experienced the hardships that I felt over four years ago, and felt the exact pain and loneliness that founded this ministry.
It has been hard to talk about somethings for a while. We have been temporarily reworking the site and looking at planning different speaking engagements for the new year. Things have been very busy, yet I have kept some things inside that finally I am bringing out.
I said all of that to say this… for the past few months I have been dealing with yet another divorce with my parents.
When you go through an event in your life that changes the view and outlook of certain things, it is hard to overcome them. When these things are brought up, emotions and feelings take over and it is easy to retreat back to the past.
Being that my parents have gone through another separation, I found myself relating back to the first divorce. All of the anger, frustration, pain, brokenness and loneliness found its way back.
Yet through it all I kept this hard attitude that everything was okay, and that I did not need to talk about it. I had to keep this front that nothing was wrong or going on. But inside my life seem to be going a million miles an hour with no end in sight.
I felt all alone. I felt like I had no voice. I felt like no one understood.
The one thing that I had been able to resolve in my life four years ago was making its way back into my life.
And it was difficult to deal with.
The thing is going back to the beginning of this whole entry, I knew that there was one thing that I did have and one thing that would hold me together. This one thing was the answer to all of my problems and the answer to all of my pain.
GOD
I got to a place where life was seeming to overtake who I was and where I was. So I turned to the only thing that I knew and that was God. Yes, there were still some things that I found hard to deal with, but I knew that no matter what He was with me, and that He would NEVER leave me.
The bible says that God will never leave you nor forsake you, that He will be with us until the end.
It does seem like some easy get out of jail free card to just say that God is the answer to all of your problems.
Yet when I look at my life, honestly He is the answer to all of my problems. He knew what was going to happen before it ever happened, and yet He had a plan to bring me out of it.
He has that same plan to bring you out of what ever you are dealing with.
I know going through life and going through the divorce of one’s parents is hard, but what I want you to know is that God is always there for you. In your darkest times, in your loneliness, in your brokenness, He will never leave you, He will be right by your side.
Not only is God there, but so it ThisIsOURShoutOut.
It has taken me a bit to write out my story again.
Having to keep everything inside to keep image and to keep quiet is hard.
This exact article has taken me a while to even finish writing.
Yet by doing so, I hope to inspire someone out there who is going through life with so many problems and emotions to let it out, tell your story, and ultimately lay all of your problems at the feet of God.
